“I am not one to do this, but now is the time to not be silent anymore, and especially about this issue: mental health. Most people know I have a huge heart and would drop everything for someone, even a complete stranger. But sometimes, I just wanted to feel and be wanted and not used. About four months ago my life took a downward spiral and I lost interest in everything. I didn’t care about anything or anyone, not even myself. On top of losing control, I suffered from health issues for months. Now being in a counseling program how am I supposed to help others if I wasn’t able to help myself? My thoughts were taking over my head, I was stressing over school, working three jobs and I finally had enough. I turned to drinking & smoking way more than I should have. The depression was incredibly real in my life, and I knew I had to get control of my life back.
It’s January 28th and I am one month free of feeling like the world was ending. With the help of some awesome, loving, and supportive friends I would not be here if it wasn’t for them. I’ll admit there are good days and bad days, but nothing compared to how I was months ago. I’ve turned eating to whatever I want into healthy eating and going to the gym every day. I’ve limited my terrible drinking habits and completely cutting out my smoking habits. With a great psychologist and prescription I am able to look past the bad times and feel in control of myself. Mental Health, anxiety, depression whatever it may be, you should not be ashamed about it. Step up and say something before it gets bad or before it’s too late. So here is to 2018 because this is MY year... here is to a new healthy lifestyle with an incredible support system that never fails me. Spread to love, you never know who needs it.
(I wrote this two months ago...and here I am two months later still battling, but still working through every day.)”
--Mackenzie, Graduate Student